My mom and I were watching True Detective last night, and I fell asleep during it to wake up in the middle of the most intense scene of the episode. My mom was not sitting on the couch anymore, gun shots were going off, and I literally almost had a panic attack. I forgot where I was and I went up to my room after a few minutes and just sat in bed and couldn’t sleep. I think this is a sign not to follow through with the course load I have planned for next semester… I want to actually enjoy college life for once. Maybe get a normal off campus job that’s flexible, like a coffee shop, take fewer credits, study voice off campus, make more friends and actually keep up with them, and audition for local operas and get the experience I really want. I think I’d actually be able to focus more on French and Italian too, and maybe find time to reflect personally since I kind of keep running from myself and have since 9th grade. And I figured I can actually graduate basically on time… off by one semester, and do all of these things and not feel the pressure to spread myself as thin as I have for the past six years.